Letter

When I first laid eyes, I felt something click inside of me. I know it sounds cheesy but it’s true. It was like I finally found what I was searching for. And though I didn’t know it at the time I told myself someway-somehow I would get to know you. I would somehow tell you how I felt. And even if telling you how I felt made me look like a fool I would feel better knowing that you know. Though you probably don’t know it…you complete me. You treat me like no guy has ever treated me before. And thought I’ve said it a hundered times before and I’ll probably say it a hundred more. I love you. Seeing you, talking to you, being with you everyday is the best thing in my life right now. Because you don’t know it…well you know part of it…but my life made a complete U-turn when I met you. Like now yeah…the same problems are in my life but you make me fell 10 times better about myself. You make me feel as if life is worth it. And no I’m not suicidal, I just tend t oshutdown when something hurts me enough. There’s a point where even I break. And I give people so many chances and so many of those times people dodn’t deserve them. But you. You’re the one person that has my heart. And it breaks everytime I see you upset. You mean the world to me and loosing you would kill me and everytime I see you with Jess it hurts me on the inside. No matter what I’ll always be here for you and I love you. Nothing you do can ever change how I feel about you. I know everytime you loose yourself it will affect me. Everytime you cry I cry. And sometimes, every one in a while I hate what you are doing to me. Because you’re the first person who has enough of me to break my heart. But like I said befor I could never hate you. Even os you told me you hated me and you never wanted to see me again I couldn’t hate you. Babe…to me you are my angel. You are the guy I want to be with. You brighten up my day and you most deffintly light up a room when you walk in. When you told Osanna I was your heart, my own heart stopped. I honestly thought I was going to daint right then and there. And the way you never hesitate to tell someone how you fell about me just makes me fell like maybe you are the one for me. Being with you gives me a peace of mind even if its only for a few seconds. And you remembering about my ring and my stone just was like wow. No one ever notices or remembers tiny things like that about me. When you asked me if there was a slight chance that we would go out would I wait for it. I said I would wait for as long as I have to to be with you. That was an understatement. I would move the earth and the moon and even the sun to be with you. I would give everything up to be with you. With you I can be myself. I don’t have to be afraid to tell you what I feel. With you my heart and my mind is a peace. When I’m not with you it kills me…I feel as is I’m not myself when I’m not with you. My heart drops whenever I see you with another girl but I know that I don’t own you and that you have friends. That’s something that I wouldn’t change about you, Actually I woulnd’t change anything about you at all. To me your perfect. And no one else can tell me any different. I feel like sometimes you don’t understand how I really feel and I’m writing this letter because I don’t know or I don’t want yo uto feel that I’m not serious about you. Because I am. I am dead serious about you. You are my destiny. You are my love. And I could never loose you. I can't lie to you.I can't make you choose.I can't say I hate you.I can't say I don't want you.I can say that I love you.That your my one of a kind guy.I can say I can always look to you for help nd that no matter what I want you to be happy. And most of all I just want US to work out. Tough times or not your all I really have…your all I really want. I love you just the way you are. Please don’t change for anyone. Not even me. And I really, really do hope that this helps clear somethings up. Some feelings up. I don’t know how but somehow you managed to find away through my walls. Now I just hope you don’t do anything to shatter them or me. I LOVE YOU FOREVER & ALWAYS, Babe. XOXO